I’ve lately been reading a lot of different kind of literature about human development and various texts on how to recognize the true self. Who are we really? How do we know ourselves? Are we automatic talking and thinking robots repeating preset patterns our society has created that we think we are supposed to do? Now, give this statement a little thought and concentrate on the picture below…
Do you see a cat or a lion? Or both? Which of them are you? Are you really a cat who wants to become a lion? Or do you think that you should be a lion instead of a cat because a lion is more powerful? This is a metaphor but I think you get the picture.
If you want to know what you are you cannot imagine or have belief in something which you are not. One must know oneself as one is, not as one wishes to be which is merely an ideal and therefore fictious, unreal; it is only that which is that can be transformed, not that which you wish to be. Do you follow me at all? This became clear to me while I was reading J.Krishnamurti‘s “The First And Last Freedom” today while sun shining brightly into my eyes… I shall continue a little bit.
Reality can be found only in understanding what is; and to understand what is, there must be freedom, freedom from the fear of what is. Surrendering to the moment that already is.
To understand that process there must be the intention to know what is, to follow every thought, feeling and action; and to understand what is, is extremely difficult, because what is, is never still, never static, it is always in movement! This made me realise that every “now moment” is a new one and that is to say fleeting.
The what is, is what you are, not what you would like to be; it is not the ideal, because the ideal is fictious, but it is actually what you are doing, thinking and feeling from moment to moment. The fundamental understanding of oneself does not come through knowledge or through the accumulation of experiences, which is merely the cultivation of memory.
Now here comes the clue of this writing: The understanding of oneself is from moment to moment; if we merely accumulate knowledge of the self, that very knowledge prevents further understanding , because accumulated knowledge and experience becomes the centre through which thought focuses and has its being. The world is not different from us and our activities because it is what we are which creates the problems of the world; the difficulty with the majority of us is that we do not know ourselves directly, but seek a system, a method, a means of operation by which to solve the many human problems. There is no method for self-knowledge. If we can understand ourselves as we are from moment to moment without the process of accumulation, then we shall see how there comes a tranquillity that is not a product of the mind, a tranquillity that is neither imagined nor cultivated; and only in that state of tranquillity can there be true freedom, true self-knowing and most importantly creativeness.